i love it so much ♥

MUCH BETTER

true friendship

something i always wanted... but thought i could never have.

i'm a shy person, which is probably the problem. where i come from, shy people always get their feelings hurt.

sadly, i'm no different. when i got my 1st computer and got the internet, i thought i would make a site where i could make online friends. i made 2 of them.

i've met some amazing ppl on here. ppl i know i will never forget. it's a break from the real world, even thought they're far away.

i love the friends i made online because we have alot in common. some r better than the friends i have in school. i love making new friends, i guess i gotta speak up more that's all :)


most of my friends say i'm weird for being on the computer all the time. I'M NOT ON THE COMP ALL THE DAMN TIME. one of the main reasons i'm on the computer is because of the online classes i have 2 take. if i don't take them, i can't graduate.

another reason is, it takes my mind off the hell i have to endure almost everyday. SCHOOL. i hate it. thank god i only have 2 months left and i'm a senior so i get out earlier than every1 else. the students in my school... they pick on me all the time... because of what i like.

i mean... y can't i listen 2 j-rock? just because they don't like doesn't mean i can't. I LOVE IT. IT'S THE BEST THING I'VE LISTENED TO IN A LONG TIME. BETTER THAN WHAT THEY LISTEN 2.

the music they listen 2, it's the same thing: drugs, sex, money, guns, violence... I CAN'T STAND IT.

i mean... i can't lie... i listened 2 it when i was younger. but that was all i knew. but when i was around my mom, we listened 2 old music. i like it. still listen 2 it. but i doubt very seriously i'll go back 2 those days of listening 2 wat the kids in school r.

i guess i'm done ranting.... for now...

i was mad bcuz my friend's ipod got corrupted after i put all my j-rock music on it T.T

but he cheers me up every time :)

till graduation. waaah i'm nervous. i know the final exams are gonna kill me x.x even though the a;st day for seniors is may 15th, we graduate june 6th.

THAT MAKES NO SENSE.

then, our prom is a week after seniors are out of school.

WTF. it's bad enough we gotta go back 2 school just 2 graduate. all i want is my diploma and my certification in my trade.

luckily for me, spring break is in 2 weeks :)

and my birthday is in 9 days! YAY!

can b so hard. me and my friend r just writing a fanfic and man.... writer's block can come along so easily. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! wat to do... wat to do...

need for speed: underground rivals

well, turns out alot of my friends new about this game XD i'm a need for speed fan so obviously i have it XD
we were talking about this game in class. even though we had work 2 do. i spent 5 hours playing this game in school (class was a little boring)


love it! it's 1 game i used to never stop playing XD i love it. but hated when i crashed XD for sum reason, i crash more than usual in this game. but i was determined to finish it. and i did :) it just took me a long time though. this game also helped me improve my drifting skills.

need for speed carbon: own the city

damn did i play this game for over 12 hours straight a day XD

i was playing it the whole time while the school was on lockdown.

when i first played it i was happy it had a free roam so i could memorize the area again. all the sharp turns and drifting on that game was so cool 2 do. idk y but i like doing the cop chases. and bumping into all the cops till they died XD

aaah i brung back good memories playing that game. my mom used to say "i hope drive the way u race in the game (since i have to go over 100 mph and sometimes i crash alot) XD i said "i won't" i would never race my car. even though it is tempting late at night because sometimes no one is on the highway (not even highway patrol sometimes) XD

i got a perfect score on my french project!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hallejuah! bout time i become happy again XD and i got to skip 2 classes 2 finish my project. god i hate going to ms. thaniel's class. all the damn kids work my last nerve in there.

then she can't remember a damn thing. 2 days ago i told her to move the boys' seats because they kept messin with me.

a few minutes later...

SHE FORGOT

what a surprise... NOT.

o well i didn't go to her class 2day anyway so idc right now XD

and my trade teacher won't be in school 2morrow :) YAY!

aah let's hope 2morrow will b awesome too :)

IS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I JUST FINISHED WATCHING IT AND I FELT LIKE I WAS THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg every performance was perfect. shou's voice was simply perfect in this dvd. i loved it. everytime i watch a performance it's like they get better and better.







i'm SO GLAD i got to watch it. you should seriously get this dvd because it's definitely worth it.

well, that's what i've been doing for the past few hours. today is election day so i was bored most of the day. i don't want to tell the whole dvd away and spoil the fun so hopefully you all will get to see it ^.^

i was determined to treat myself for taking such a difficult test XD

so i convinced my mom to take me to TARGET. since they renovated the ENTIRE STORE, i was lost in a maze. i couldn't even find my mom XD. i decided to leave where she was bcuz i was determined to get a video game i've been waiting for for over a year that came out last week. AND THEY ONLY HAD 3 COPIES OF IT LEFT. I WANTED THAT GAME FOR SO LONG. i was happy i brung all my money or i couldn't get it.

but... I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!

MIDNIGHT CLUB: LA REMIX!!!!!!!! (the special edition of midnight club: los angeles) only for psp!



and i've been playing it ever since.

after i got the game, i bought me and my mom some linch and went home for a little bit.

then we both got our hair done.

what a way to celebrate after taking the SAT's. i feel very lucky :)

those SAT's were hard as hell!!!!!!!!! and not only that, WE WERE IN THERE LONGER THAN LAST TIME!!!!!! they were harder than last year!!!!!!!! (i took it again to improve my grade) i am so glad it's over.




it was crazy the moment i woke up. i was about to leave out the door when i realized i need a photo id in order to take the SAT's. but I COULDN'T FIND IT. so i called my friend petra to see if i needed it or get away with not having it. she told me i'll need to bring my mom in to identify me (which isn't hard because we basically look alike)

so i had to tell my mom some1 stole it (which is true) and she was mad. but was also clam about it too. she didn't at me THANK GOD XD. so when i went in there i told them i didn't have my id. the man told me "go to room 100 and they'll get u in" i said "okay" so i go in there but i realized what time it was so i pulled a guy to the side and told him i had no i.d. on me and he was like "u can't take the test" i said "the guy out there told me u can let me in with a slip saying i could take it" he says "sorry i can't." WHAT A JERK. so i had to call my mom BACK TO THE SCHOOL SO OF COURSE SHE WAS A LITTLE UPSET. anyways, when i told her the story she was just angry. THANK GOD SHE WASN'T ANGRY AT ME XD

we go back to room 100 and what do ya know, THE GUY WHO TOLD ME I COULDN'T TAKE WASN'T IN THERE ANYMORE. i guess he knew i was bringing some1 in or maybe he thought he was gonna get beat up XD. well, he came in a few minutes later and i pointed to him saying "that's the guy who told me i couldn't take it" the man was skinny. my mom has bigger muscles than him. she could probably break him like a twig (since the job she does requires alot of lifting that's where it comes from". she looked like she was gonna storm after him and make him write a slip for me XD but i didn't want any drama and i needed to take the test again so i pulled the SAME GUY over to me and i told him i still didn't have it BUT, i brung my mom in. he asked "does she have an id?" i called her over and he took her i.d. a few minutes later he comes back with a slip and says "go to the 3rd floor and that's where u'll take ur test. THANK GOD.

so my friend is waiting for me to get out from the room and we both say good-bye to my mom.

then i asked jess if we could test in the same room. she says "okay" so we wait in the VERY LONG LINE to be seated in the classroom so we can take the test. but as soon as we were about to enter the room, jess was the last person that could go into the room so we were split. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah XD

so i go into the classroom up the hall and idk any1 in the room. but it was all good. i just wanted to take the test and get it over with.

which is exactly what i did. but it ended an HOUR LONGER THAN THE LAST TIME I TOOK IT. i told my mom she can come pick me up now and she sys "ur uncle will b the 1 2 pick u up" i'm thinkin to myself "y is he pickin me up when he doesn't live on this side of town?" i thought he was gonna take me sumwhere. but my mom said he was gonna pick up somethin from my house. but i was determined to treat myself since i took a difficult test. so i convinced my mom to take me to TARGET.

1st period: was a little nerve-wracking. i had 2 act out a scene from a play called "MacBeth" in my group. AND IT WAS LESS THAN 10 PEOPLE IN THE CLASSROOM. and only 1 other person in my group was there at the time. not only that MY TEACHER WAS GONNA FILM US ACTING OUT OUR SCENES! every1 got nervous when we found that out. since alot of team members weren't there for each group some teams decided to team up to help out every1 with their scenes (including my team) which was very thoughtful. all in all, it turned out good even though we made mistakes (not too many) and some of us were camera shy (like me sometimes and those were 1 of those moments) luckily that's all we had to do in that class.

2nd-4th period: was like a free period. i was so glad i came to school wednesday bcuz the drill for taody was the same thing i already did so basically i got a free 100 (i seriously need it since i hate math and physics) then we had to watch a boring video about a subject we're doing in physics class. the guy in the video was very weird (he kept making weird noises and saying weird things XD) and take notes on the vid. that's about it for that class.

5-8th period: i had a project to turn in for that class. i wasn't finished. but when she said we can finish it during her class period i was jumping for joy in mind XD. i was so happy she said that. but then... i looked at the clock.

DAMN. it's almost time to go and i didn't even finish her project. then she said "if u didn't finish ur project u have till the end of the day. and once again... i was jumping for joy in my mind XD

9th period (which is my lunch period): there were alot of ups and downs.

that same certain person IS ON MY LUNCH PERIOD. AND HE HAD THE NERVE TO SIT AT MY TABLE. then he huffs and puffs so loud actin like i can't hear him. NO ONE TOLD HIM 2 SIT AT MY TABLE. ugh he was annoying, then my friend jess wanted to annoy him. i let her annoy him bcuz they're friends and as long as he wasn't talking to me i was good. but then she kept on pushing me to talk to him after i told her "no i don't want to." but then she kept saying his name and i yelled at her. i really REALLY didn't mean to yell at her. she looked so scared of me i felt guilty instantly. but she shouldn't have pushed me to talked to him. i apologized constantly to her of course. and she 4gave me. THANK GOD.

so to calm my nerves i talked to my friend petra. idk where i would b without her. she calmed me down.

and to think: all of 9th period happened in 30 MINUTES

10th period (last period yay! XD): it's basically a free period for me. it's my music class. we had textbook work (but it was easy bcuz i did it all within 30 minutes ^.^). after i did the work i went back 2 finishing my project for my law class. tank goodness i was almost done bcuz i didn't have too many ideas for the project. i finished with 15-20 minutes. after that i still had half the period left to go. so i watched the movie mr. pate had for use 2 watch called "the cave". it was good. well, all of his movies are good since he gets all the new movies that come out every tuesday.

after school: i turned in my project and it felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. since i didn't have a bus ticket to take me home, i had to stay in school for an extra hour and a half (which wasn't too bad today). my friends were there so i was kept busy ^.^

i just wish that certain person wasn't such a jacka** 2 me. he gave me candy 2day. but it was in a rude way

here's the scenario:

i was walking up the ramp with my friend to the door we go into the school and i see him coming down the ramp towards me about to give me candy. but here's how he did it. he basically shoved the candy into my stomach and said "here you go". AND IT HURT WHEN HE DID IT. i was about to turn around and slap him and curse him out but i said "just walk away from it. it won't do no good to hurt him. it's friday, the last day of school for the week, and the last time you'll have to see him until monday. THANK GOD. cuz it pissed me off literally though half of first period.

TRANSFORMERS!!!!!!!!!!! XD

louise i haven't watched it in a while so i decided 2 watch it 2day XD

like i said, i would probably listen to my ipod and watch tv all day XD

1st song of the day 2 get me pumped up:



then i watched vamps "love addict" pv





and the making of it:



then i watched alice nine's "cross game" pv (which i may say is amazing :)




and SID's "Sentimental Macchiato" Type B dvd

i took off from school 2day. simply bcuz of the fact i didn't want to go to the inauguration and i'm still not feeling good for sum reason. i took medicine for my headache and yet i can still feel it a little bit. hopefully it will go away soon ^.^ i basically just woke up about an hour ago and i'm still groggy as hell XD. but i wanted to get out of that bed. i'll probably just watch tv and eat all day XD i just hope i don't get any annoying phone calls about y wasn't i at the inauguration. but knowing my friends, i will T.T but like i told them before I DON'T NEED AN INAUGURATION 2 TELL ME THAT I'M A SENIOR. i mean all we're doing is sitting around listening 2 the choir, listen to what the principal has 2 say 2 us, and maybe a few other people, and say a pledge. i can sit around at home. and besides, i always fall asleep in that auditorium or listen 2 my ipod. basically i never stay focused in there XD

and 1 good thing is... i turned my cell phone off so even if they did wanna call, only a few ppl know my house number. so let's see who calls me XD

was quiet, and just nerve wracking.

it was quiet because 1 of my classmates was murdered last week and today was his funeral so the majority of the 12th graders went to his funeral. my classes were also quiet bcuz of that.

it was nerve wracking for many reasons.

1. today i got into an argument with my best friend (bcuz she lied 2 me about something) but i won in the end. she knew she was wrong.

2. it felt like all my friends were going against me and idk y. i mean they talked about me to my face. so i cursed them all out and walked off.

3. there's this 1 boy who keeps interfering with my friendship which some1 (and it almost worked bcuz i almost lost her as 1 of my only true friends today) but of course it didn't and we both yelled at him in the end XD

4. practicing walking in heels all the way up to the 4th floor in my high school (which is big it has five floors and long stairwells) was seriously a bad idea. but it paid off. i had 2 practice for my senior inauguration (basically it pledges us as being official seniors blah blah blah) LIKE WE ALREADY DON'T KNOW WE'RE SENIORS THE MOMENT WE PASSED THE 11TH GRADE. we don't need a ceremony to "pledge us in" whatever we get a free day out of school so why not XD

5. i have a killer headache at the moment. i guess it's from having too much greasy food lately. i took something for so hopefully i'll feel better.

6. and there's this boy in my 2-4 period class who kept flirting with me. ew gross. i don't like him. he just a friend. and i found out he has a child. HELL NO I REALLY DON'T WANT HIM XD

well, that's how my day went today. aaaah no pics today bcuz i was just too angry and i wasn't feeling good. i mean all i did in my classes was listen to my ipod and play my psp a little. but maybe i'll have some 2morrow ^.^

once again... my friends treat me like crap. and a certain person started this whole mess. i've been best friends with my friend jess since freshman year. and a certain person just had to get in the way. he just had 2 get in the way. he both told us different stories and i basically confronted jess to see if it was true. and what do ya know.... IT WASN'T. i already felt like i had a trust issue with my best friend (that's over with now) and he made it worse. i almost lost my best friend ever since freshman year all bcuz i let some1 get to my head. if it weren't for me he wouldn't have know who jess was. but i'm glad i cleared the air with jess. and we both yelled at the boy in the end for almost breaking up our friendship (which i gotta admit was pretty funny)